you see, internet, for the past year i have been so physically and emotionally drained. there wasn't much time to wax poetic or try to find weird ways to connect number theory into my every day life. for most of the past six months, i was working two jobs and had no days off. i had to wake up at 5am (4am on sundays), and half of my time was spent doing a job i knew was beneath me. it was really hard to be happy knowing that i should be doing something more.
so i didn't have time to express myself. i'm finding it just gets to be that way the further i am from art school. life just seems to get in the way sometimes.
there was a silver lining, though. where i said half of my time was spent at a job i hated, the other half was spent learning new, exciting things at a different job. a job with friends that made me feel much happier just by being around them. a job that taught me a marketable skill, and finally helped to ease my crippling fear of getting that elusive big boy job.
everything is happening all at once. in less than 60 hours, i will be living with my girlfriend of over two years (she just getting a big girl job herself), and there really isn't much that could make me happier than that. but add the fact that i'm going to be making enough money to live comfortably, and i'm surrounded by some really great people, and life is really looking pretty fantastic lately.
26 seems so long ago. when i was just waiting for my life to get together. waiting for some meaning. i was trying to build my cube (if you don't know what i'm talking about, internet, i suggest you go back and read this blog's first entry). it's interesting to note that 29 is the sum of three consecutive squares (4, 9, and 16), and there are three things that are making me happy:
* new job
* new house with girlfriend
* new dog (as soon as we get in the new house)
since a cube is six squares, i guess i have to find three other things to shoot for:
* debt paid off
* a wedding
* a kid?
hopefully it doesn't have to follow the consecutive square pattern, or else i'd be 139 when i finally reach total happiness.
i definitely feel like the last month has been a huge step in the right direction, though. that cube isn't far off.
i'll try to update more often, internet. i promise. nowadays, i might just have time to do it.
